I keep going through hell. Yesterday, under anesthesia, to get scope down my throat to get pictures to see if there was anything on it. That was negative. But a CT the other day revealed masses in my hips. So, under local sedation, they put hole in the left hip and it is draining into a little cup next to me. I'm waiting for the results of that liquid.
To be totally honest, I smoke crack for my depression. I think doing that is causing my bad UTIs that are putting me in the hospital, but I just don't think I can quit. It is the only thing that makes me feel better. July 2nd will be 5 years paralyzed. I can't believe it has been that long already.
I take kratom for pain. It is probably less effective than marijuana. But kratom is legal in Texas. I use the maeng da strain of kratom. Just a level teaspoonful in a half cup of water will help pain and mood immensely. On uti’s, the alternative therapy is a tea made from marshmallow root, hydrangea root, and gravel root. Only drink a quarter cup of the tea at first, because drinking more can cause a little discomfort. The tea dissolves debris in the urinary tract, helping you eliminate that debris and fight off the infection.
You are “worth it”. Please read up on alternative therapies. People in other countries and our own pioneer ancestors took care of themselves for centuries using plants, herbs, compresses, salves, and teas. Drink some coconut water! Find a friend who isn’t afraid to go to the grocery store for you.
Ask your doctor before trying any alternative therapy treatments, or kratom.